Last night, I’m having a conversation with my mum which turned out very bad, I guess. Sitting on my bed, started to recall the past ..times flies fast.I had forgotten all about it .Flashback started to appear in my mind.. I started to question : When was the last time you all praise me, when was the last time I felted doted and loved, When was the last time I was right? Without a second thought and the answer was NO, NEVER EVER …maybe when I was a baby or a child I guess.
I come from a very complicated family which I don’t wish to reveal much. Just a small secret we all have. Sometimes I will be very envy others - how they are close with the family ,just like friends and so trendy. What happened fifteen years ago will Never be forgiven. I was not in the wrong at all and does not deserve a tight and sharp slap at all. At that very moment, your daughter was dead at heart. Things started to change soon, I never be happy at all. I hated them to the core of an apple. Well , like all parents will said" I raise a child is not easily and all the effort I had done, should I deserve these?"Hmmm… True enough, it was not easily at all but If choice was given, I rather chose I NEVER been born and brought to this world. Only choice was given to me , all I just want was a simple family and lead a simple life, NOT SO abnormal family.
I remember Lady of the house was not really very happy during the days when I am young. She always hide behind the bedroom door and cried sadly. As for me, being eldest in the family hold too much responsible till I cant hold it no longer anymore.i am going Nuts soon or later.I was never right, I was always wrong, I always been punished alone.For example: All my siblings and I were jumping on the sofa bed, out of sudden without warning, a sharp hit my butt and only me Not them,NONE at all. My face turn greenish,Lips turn purplish and started to shake. My body temperature slowly turn cold which given the lady of the house a shock as well. Thinking it back, it did given me a shiver now.Relationship with the Man of the house was not good too after the incident.I had not addness him for almost 6 to 8 years until I met him.I was in my teen, quite rebel, always trying hard to break free. But soon he appeared, things changed. He taught me alot of things along the way,he never gave up on me. At that period, I felt bliss, lighten my load, doted and love. I always have a shoulder to cry on, someone to depend on and will never let go. How Love is so amazing yet can be destrutive at the same time? I had forgotten all …..
Return back to time now, Lady of the house mention during the conversation,Where was your heart gone to? How can you be so heartless? In your heart, 你很目中無人 (in chinese), you never think of other and only for yourselves,can you don’t trying to 承强. I remain slient just to avoid arguement. I agreed with her, I did 目中無人 depend on who the person was in the first place.Heartless .. Like I said, my heart was dead. I only do what was good for myself, to enhance my knowledge and does not want to follow your footstep to agree on everything he said. Am I 承强,Hmm.. I dont have a shoulder to cry on, someone to depend on, so what do you think? All I just ask for was a small break ,small rest, I can’t take it anymore, was that so diiffcult to you folks? Don’t blame me ,When I had decided, I will go ahead whether lady or Man of the house like it or not. Whoever block my way or stop me, don’t blame me. Remember I don’t have a heart at all. Sound scary hor ..*Wink … Is it true or not … Well .. make a guess … Is all depend who that person was? I’m tired, so tired… Just want to close my eyes now……
Welcome!!!!! This is Snowy’s New Home…
Poor Snowy!! Without a house to stay in so has to sleep there whole Night I think….She so cute..
New Accessories add into her home… Wooden playhouse and finally a house to sleep during the night with cool board as base.
My Snowy really very timid… Had to carry her to the 2nd level to play the wheel. She is unable to climb all the way up.. Too Scary for her, I guess…
Last round playing the ball.. She was too scared…Ahhhh .. have to get her a spinning wheel liao.. Faints… Must train her up..
